Time Capsule

Ten years ago, I left a message for myself for today. It read ” Things always fall into place at their own time, in their own pace.” It was a simple Facebook post that I received a memory of.

That girl was smart and knew I needed to hear this at a time like this.

I wonder what was happening in my life then. What mountain was I moving? Did moving that mountain make it possible for this mountain to be and be moved? Yes. Definitely yes.

I am at a point in life where the things I have prayed on, manifested on and are constantly thinking about are not happening as fast as I want them to. I have a vision of my life and that of my family, I have set goals and my ambitions are all in alignment. However, these things are not happening as soon as I hoped they would. Do you ever feel that sometimes?

Career Change

I changed the trajectory of my career two years ago. I was not happy and my body was giving up on me. The stress was weighing heavily on my back and I developed chronic pain.  I was sure of the things I wanted out of life, such as climbing the ladder in the nonprofit world work. I have always wanted to be part of the change in this world. Good change such as ending poverty, achieving social justice and gender equality.

When I could not keep this dream alive, other than in my small community where I grew up, things had to change. I decided to use my untapped creativity skills.

So I wrote a book, a memoir, a blueprint for those who are coming after me.

To see that we all have what it takes to make it in this life and achieve our wildest dreams. Growing up in the slums can impact on who you show up as and where you think your place is in the world. Rewiring your brain, to know who you are and all you can do, is a great shift. I could help others shift so we can rewrite our stories.

So I took my dreams out of my head onto paper and shared with those who can help actualize my big big dream of getting the book to one million young people, especially girls and young women. I was so scared of what I was asking of people. Sharing the vision felt like a big risk. What would they think of me? Who was I to think I can do this? What will they say about my budgets? What if they do not like it and brush it off? I would soon find out.

I did not expect the reaction I got, it was wonderful. I felt so safe and other than two people who made snide remarks, I did feel supported in my vulnerability.

Patience My Old Friend, I Have Come To You Again, Hello!

So now my dream was out in the world, and all the what ifs I had created in my head did not come true.

I have to wait for the process to go through the phases it takes. It will not happen as soon as I wanted it to or it just might.

Well, this space is not as nice. It leaves you not sure of what could happen next or if it would happen at all. And all you can do is wait.

Patience, is that you my old friend? How did we ever do this before? Because I have been here before.

Well, what I know for sure, is that patience rarely ever let’s you down. Especially when you have done all that you need do. And so here I sit believing that life works in magical ways. You could be waiting for one thing and along comes another, that is even better than what you had anticipated. I have seen this scenario play in my life many times. It’s just that the mind forgets.

So, I am exercising this muscle afresh, knowing full well it will get stronger. By the time I think I am tired, another way will be made. This is the stuff of hope, yes?! Yes. Hope does always make a way.